[I'm worried about this post. It's pretty close to my heart. I wrote it weeks ago, but I keep putting off publishing it. And then in quiet moments I’ll think of it and feel, again, like I need to say it. So let's all put on our generous hats, shall we?] One Christmas I came home to visit my family and realized that my oldest niece and nephew were growing up. They were twelve, I think, on the cusp of teenagehood, and I realized I was terrified for them. They were (are!) such awesome and good kids, and I was excited for them, in a way, but also scared. That was when the world got complicated for me, and I don't think I've ever quite forgiven the world for becoming so. When I say I was scared for them, I mean I was nearly trembling. It was almost a physical reaction, a slow-motion "Noooooo!" in my head, willing them away from the cliff of further development. I just got called into the Young Women's program , the organization in our church for g...
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By the way, regarding your post from a few weeks ago about girlfriends (it's been weeks since I've looked at people's blogs)...I have recently learned how important they are! For about the first year of marriage (and probably most of our dating and engagement time), I was just obsessed with Bryson, and didn't feel a need to have "girl time". And then, I realized I missed it desperately. There's just something about talking with a good girlfriend that you can't get from talking with a husband, or any other guy. So, I understand. I'm here for you if you want to chat, though I'll warn you that I'll whine about pregnancy things for at least part of the conversation! I'm hoping I find some girls I really get along with when we move to Texas...kind of scared about that.
I can commiserate with you lately. We have two dogs and a cat, so when they get along it is a miracle! And where girl friends are concerned--I feel totally helpless in that arena. I grew up with boys and have never had a relationship with a girl that didn't feel at least somewhat superficial. I blame myself for that, but realize it can be hard to find people you really connect with. I think it takes letting your guard down, being willing to share.
The funny thing is, even though I do most of the writing, most of the blog buddies are Michael's. Not to mention, he has a whole slew of relatives. He just updated it for me so some of my friends are on the list too now. I'm feeling a little more involved.