It's clear as of today that it's not me that's sucking at this job, it's the job that's sucking. I mean, it's a bad situation. Talked to an dear mentor from days past who knows what these jobs should be like and he said, wow, that's not good.
So what does one do when they find out their "dream job" is not so dreamy? What now?
Here are jobs I think I'd like, not that I trust myself to pick anymore:
*studying elephant family dynamics in Africa
*studying the connections between bird songs and whale songs
*writing for radiolab, thisamericanlife, or speakingoffaith
*writing documentaries about cool smart people who are dead
*designing energy-efficient and lovely and low-cost housing for poor folks
*librarian for a big pretty library
*studier of brains
*person who makes up names for ice cream flavors
*yes, cat, like the animal. their job is to take naps and be cute. i want that job.
(i swear the little meatsock posed for this picture. i took it just now with my computer's webcam. sorry for blur.)
See, trouble is, I'd have to, like, be a baby again to do one of these things with my life. Start over. Be reincarnated.
Is reincarnation necessary for career change? Or maybe I just need this job at a different place?
I've been crying on and off all day. And now I'm tired.